hello hello hello.. still dont have internet.. so this is gonna be a little brief.. life is good, people are good, cats are good, school is done, looking for a job, etc etc.. call me!

dear POLYP,

hi, i’m 19 currently wearing a pink muumuu and i have lesbian issues. First of all, i dont know if im attracted to tangi or not.. but i think i am. AM I? omg. she ONLY wants to have casual sex, but im looking for a more alternative sexual endeavor.. im looking to EXPLORE my sexuality in all it’s BEASTLINESS! soo the question i am asking.. should or shouldn’t i confront her about this problem? is it a problem? whats wrong with me??

- FAT HAWAIIAN GYRL

everyone

is

loved..

and

family.

ok well this weekend was alright.. hung out with the kahuku people on friday and went to angles and stuff.. saturday we went to the beach.. took pictures and stuff and went to venus.. it was kinda a weird night. bleh. BLINK concert on april 3rd.. a day after my birthdayaaaa.. everyone come

 

rawrrrrr.  

hi. lova ya.

oook well here i am again.. at compusa. ugh people here are making me nervous, they keep looking at what im typing.. maybe theyre secret compusa STALKERS. anyway kristy and i are watching movies at resturant row cause it’s only like a dollar..cheeee.  this weekend was festive, went to aaron’s hotel gathering and venus and stuff.. and went to angles and fusions on sunday. fusions sucks, i liked angles though. hmm bleh well take care everyone 

ok so tonight was interesting.. my sister came over while i was cleaning and told me that she’ll probably come and live with me..With her boyfriend (who has two children), herself and her baby. she says if it happens then my dad will renovate the house and shit which is a good thing.. i dunno if i can live with 2 people and 3 kids. bleh that means no late night drinking and no more parties. sigh. argh. sooo that got me thinking, maybe i should move out? and then it got me thinking more.. where would i go? so thats basically it. 

it’s funny how things change.. how everything has its good and bad moments. ok so anyway things have been getting better.. i’m starting to piece myself together. i havent updated this in awhile because i dont have internet anymore and my cable is shut off too. yes im living in hell. i still havent been going to school although i did go one day out of this week.. but things are changing and my motivation is starting to get better. anyway im at compusa and gotta go. i love you all

ok well normally i dont write this kinda shit on xanga for the world to see, but this time it’s different. I just need everyone to understand about how i REALLY feel. So anyway for the past few weeks or so i’ve been feeling depressed, i don’t know why really. i havent gone to school for the past 3 or more weeks and instead ive been staying at home.. it’s weird, when i’m at home i cry about nothing.. and every little thing can make me emmotional. I feel ugly, stupid, and pathetic all the time. it sounds stupid but i’m scared about going to school.. i dont wanna be known as the loser that doesnt show up to class or the guy who’s failing his grade. My counselor has called my mom and dad and my mom is pissed and says my dad could kick us out. i was supposed to go today and yesterday, i even woke up on time.. but i just didnt want to.. like REALLY didnt want to. it sounds so stereotypical but it’s true, i feel empty inside. i don’t feel like doing anything .. like talking to people, going out, making friends, etc etc.. its really wrong and i feel so bad about it, it’s just something that i can’t do right now.. it’s hard for me to express my emotions and its hard for me to show people that im weak. i’ve been contemplating seeing my doctor for the past 2 weeks and i was even gonna schedule an appointment.. but when it all comes down to it, im just scared to talk about it with her. i mean i wanna get help, i know its not normal for me to feel this way.. things that would make me happy at times like this, they dont work anymore.. i feel like i lost alot of myself and im ready to become normal again!!! im sorry if i acted like an ass to anyone, and thanks for reading..

ok im at school right now and im bored as hell… i compiled a list of my christmas wish list.

1. the louis vuitton wallet with the rainbow LV print. MMMM..

2. this one’s dorky – a subscription to boomspeed.com & my own website with hosting.

3. gay.com premium account.

4. a year subscription to XY

5. an orange fluffy kitten

6. an alarm clock

7. Ala moana gift certificates.

8. AX jeans… the ones that look like they’re plaid but aren’t.

9. Money

10. the GAP, DIESEL & AX displays.. lol.

11. a jetta

12. your mom.

13.a ticket to L.A.

14. something decorative..

15. anything cute.

I did it in 24 seconds.
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